semi-incognito.

earlier this year i decided that my shirt for the new moon movie premiere would be something like a "la push cliff diving team" shirt i saw a mom wander into work wearing one day. i thought it was clever, and while totally obvious to the true twilight lover, anti-twihards would totally miss the connection.

so i searched zazzle.com & cafepress.com but never really found one that i just HAD to have upon seeing. i wanted my shirt to be an UN-obvious connection to new moon. something i could wear some other time, and watch as smiles passed over the faces of those who recognized it for what it was.... twilight devotion.

i pretty much gave up on my "la push" shirt about a week ago. i almost gave up on even having something twilight related until yesterday. the wonderful thing about twilight being a storm of fanfare is the influx of products. i saw action figures & cards & braclets & bags at no less than three stores locally this week. Walmart. Walgreens. & Toys R Us. i had to laugh at myself because a year ago, i could hardly find ANYTHING twilight related anywhere other than online.

now it is EVERYWHERE. and i love it. parts of it makes me wish i was a teenager again & could get away with all the bookbags & bracelets & tshirts. but somewhere deep down, i know it's kinda a waste of money. (note however that on mason's toys r us wishlist i sent to my mom the new moon jacob & bella & edward & alice action figures are listed for me. half joking. :)

so anyways, i searched for probably an hour yesterday before i stumbled across the design. i felt my heart jump a little. i knew it was the one. i grabbed my card, added it to the cart, and before i could give it a second thought paid extra for speedy shipping to insure that it arrived on time.

crazy? yes. don't tell my husband i paid $13 for shipping on a shirt to go see a movie i've already paid $25 to see & it isn't even out yet. that's devotion. and a perk of being an adult. i have only myself to thank and curse at 6am on friday morning when i can barely hold my eyes open from the lack of sleep at having stayed up for the midnight premiere.

ahh. 4 glorious anticipation filled days.......:::::::AHHHHH:::::::

peace-k

consumed.

so.....

since starting the paper cut blog with miss cp i have started scrapbooking more.

i'm totally loving the push it gives me.

makes me be creative, when i wouldn't otherwise because of boring day to day life stuff.

last week's challenge was about phenomenon.

my TWO PAGE (yes that's right) layout was about the vampire phenomenon.

and of course my love for all things vampire.

ya know.

twlight.

new moon.

eclipse.

breaking dawn.

kristen stewart.

bella swan.

rob pattinson.

edward cullen.

true blood.

the sookie books.

sookie stackhouse.

bill compton.

ERIC NORTHMAN.

ERIC NORTHMAN.

ERIC NORTHMAN.

(ahh. alexander skarsgaard.) vampire diaries.

and the like.

(you get the picture)

well i printed out this itty bitty version of this picture to put on the page..

and well..

it just wasn't big enough.

so i had to scrap it again.

:)

and yes. it really does hurt so good!

this weeks paper cut challenge was blood type.

each week we have a twilight & non-twilight challenge that stems from a chapter in the book.

in twilight this chapter was about bella's getting weak at the sight of blood.

i can handle some blood. my own mostly.

i can handle needles even.

but all in all i don't dig the whole accident healthcare hospital thing.

i go weak in the knees.

no joke.

so my page was a more on the non-twilight related.

but it's cool.

we are having a blast...

and if anyone is even still READING my blog... you should come check it out :)

peace-k

i don't get it.

i swear this photo of kristen stewart just nails it.

one of my bosses get's the mag interview delivered @ work... i swear if i coulda stole it without him missing it i totally would have.

let me explain.

and i'm probably going to tick some twi-hards off.. but so be it.

i don't get it.

the needing to know.

i mean really... why does it matter if they are or are not together?

why in the world is the media & papz hounding them.

i will admit. i love the photos. but if you notice, these are photo shoots. (incredibly amazing photos shoots..) not papz pics. i don't agree with stalking their every move.

i've watched a couple of interviews kristen, rob & taylor have done. strange enough i'm most enamored with kristen. rob is difficult to watch. eventhough i love his accent he seems so uncomfortable being himself on camera. unsure of his every word. kristen seems more at ease with herself. i like her. i like that she's different, and yet so much your average girl. she seems real. reachable. she's inspiring and fierce. i'd say she's right up there with the likes of diane keaton for me. jodi foster. milla jovovich. these are people i can respect. i respect their talent. their individuality. their privacy. am i interested in learning more about them? sure. but am i gonna go sit outside their window or stalk the tabloids? absolutely not. i refuse to fund the ridiculousness that is the paparazzi. i think these people are deplorable. it amazes me that people buy into the crap they call news.

but i never have been one for celebrity gossip. ask me who is married to who & i may be able to answer it. but ask me what movies someone plays in, and likely even if i haven't seen it i can answer. i know my actors. i know my actresses. i don't buy into this instant fame being spoon fed to the masses through reality tv. i couldn't pick the kardashians out of a line up. i have no idea about big brother, the hills, wife swap, or real housewives. i quite frankly think these people will do nothing short of urinating in public to have their 10 seconds of fame. do they deserve it? no way. infamy. that's all it is. being famous for nothing is just that. nothing.

this is not to say that i think that all actors & actresses are holier than thou. i just can respect someone who puts their heart into what they do. they do it for the love of their craft. just like a musician.

and in the end they are people. they get up, they go to work, they eat lunch, they go home. if i was ever lucky enough to meet rob or kristen or taylor, i'd be hard pressed to resist the urge to go up and shake their hands and pick their brains on a few topics... i think in this mass hysteria and fan phenomenon they are handling themselves incredibly well. trying their best to be grateful to the fans. trying to graciously enter every interview faced with the never ending line up of questions regarding their relationships. rob & kristen as well as taylor & taylor swift. i wish them nothing but happiness, and if that comes in the form of those relationships, then so be it.... if not.. well i will still love all things twilight. i will still think kristen is an incredibly talented & unique individual. i will likely still drool over how delightfully british rob pattinson is. brooding musician & grungy clothes wearer that he is. i will admire taylor for the tenacity to see his vision through & the amazing way he holds himself.

.......ok... so i'm getting down off my soapbox now. :)

peace- k

because...

....i stayed up WAY to late going to see paramore in concert.
....i haven't edited my halloween pictures.
....my birthday pictures didn't turn out so great.
....i've closed 6 out of the last 11 days at work and haven't been home until DARK.
....i was so sick the day before halloween. the day of halloween. the day after halloween.
....i've been waiting until the last minute to do my paper cut layouts.
....i've been glued to every update newmoonmovie.org has posted.
....i have been going to bed at 9pm.
....mason & school is still a touchy subject.
....i've actually been scrapbooking!
....we've been celebrating small successes with mason. (like all E's on his report card!)
....i did 7 hours of math homework yesterday. (and i feel like my brain is polynomial goo!)
....the time is just flying by too darn fast.

....for all these reasons & more i haven't posted. it's amazing i got the locks of love picture up there. there are million things i want to share, and a millon more i can't. there are frustrations, and happy things, and events, and goods, and soo soo much. i feel like if i take to much time to stop, it'll all fly by and i'll have to play catch up again.

it's november 9th... and before i know it it will be january 9th. and this dark'thirty crap isn't helping.

be back with something a little more inspiring & a little less vague soon!

maybe after new moon gets here i can focus on something a little better..........NAHHH!!! :)

until then... i wanna work here!





peace-k

ps... did i mention.... MY BROTHER IS GETTING MARRIED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i did it!!!

so.... I DID IT!!

yesterday, despite horrendous headache, and impending halloween plans..

i got my hair cut.

12 inches cut. gone. donated to locks of love.

to be honest, my hair ended up being a little shorter than i had anticipated...

but it seems like such a small price to pay compared to what those who the hair is going to go through.

growing it out was much much easier than anything they endure, it almost seems foolish to feel so good for doing something so small..

but looking at the pictures of the recipients as i printed out the form to send in with my 12 inches, makes me know it's all worth it!

and the next challenge is up @ the paper cut... phenomenon... here's my sneek peak:

check out my lo & others here: www.twilightpapercut.blogspot.com

will be back later with halloween & paramore blogging!! yeahh!! :)

peace-k

phenomenon.

i've been walking around with this song stuck in my head all day...




i've been scrapping my heart out, and that's how it got stuck in my head in the first place.
i'm working on my lo for the next prompt @ the paper cut.
(and i'm totally psyched we have 32 followers now!)
and i had full intentions of posting some pictures of what i worked on..
but the battery died right after the first shot..

tomorrow is the paramore concert!!
i'm excited beyond belief!!
between the concert and all the new moon videos i've been drooling over today i feel like i'm on a twilighters high!

peace- k

30 things by 31.

1. take a photo everyday (lofty but determined)

2. make or buy handmade for most gifts

3. send random snail mail

4. sell something on etsy

5. read 5 books

6. have a date night once a month with stephen

7. make a painting at least once a month

8. sew something

9. watch a sunrise

10. watch a sunset

11. visit 2 new places

12. take a quilting class

13. learn to embroider

14. get a tattoo

15. see new moon opening night.

16. donate blood

17. buy art prints on etsy

18. see a cirque de soliel show

19. make a rain book

20. journal. one sentence. one paragraph. one page. just do it.

21. see eclipse opening night

22. see kings of leon and/or thriving ivory in concert

23. take mason to sea world

24. start a book club

25. write a letter to each member of my family letting them know how much they mean to me

26. write a letter to each friend letting them know how much they mean to me

27. take more walks with mason & stephen

28. go dancing with stephen

29. do a craft project with mason once @ month.

30. (it's sort of a secret :)

peace- k

ps. will be back with the whole twilight surprise birthday recap. time got away from me tonight :)

two thankful tuesday.

another tuesday, come & gone.
today was a good day.
yesterday was a good day.
and yes, we are talking about mason.
i'm hoping it can hold out the week.

(and even though i'm not sure those who used to stop by here have time to anymore.. )

today i'm thankful for two wonderful thoughtful people.

first.. my mom.
i've been told more times than once how lucky i am to have my mom.
and never once (okay maybe once as a "rebelling" teen as my brother used to call me) did i doubt it.
i'm truly blessed.
my mom never says no. not to one single request. no matter how small or how massive.
she is positive & reassuring.
she is hopeful.
she is kind.
she is the voice of reason in my head.
she is caring, and more compassionate than any singular person i've met in my life.
she's made many sacrifices over the course of my life..
and she certainly hasn't always had it easy.
i know she knows how much i love & respect her...
but i still worry she will wonder if i truly am thankful for her.
but i am..

the second thing i am thankful for is stephen.
i know i gripe & complain about silly little things..
make comments about how ridiculous he is sometimes..
get irritated with how short he is sometimes..
but the truth is i'm blessed.
he's hardworking.
honest.
devoted.
and while he's definitely not edward, he's an edward in his own right.
he's not prince charming, but he's my knight in shining armor.
sometimes even i take that for granted.
it's all to easy to get wrapped up in the everyday life.
the things that weigh on a relationship, the reality of life.
but this weekend made me realize that no matter how much he bottles it up...
he truly loves me.
and i truly love him.
and i'm grateful to have been lucky enough to find him to share my life with.
(stinky feet, bed hogging, non-cooking, laundry piles & all!)

what are you thankful for today?

peace- k

ps.. i'll be back tomorrow w/ my 3o things before 31 list. a recap of my 29 list, and a recap of my fabulous twilight surprise party... yep.. you heard me right ;)

my heart just stopped.

i mean it....
stop the music and watch this.




i just wanna set the record straight..
even if RPATTZ wasn't the onscreen teen delight edward, i would still love him.
he would still make me swoon.
why you ask? well lets recap.

he dresses like a grungy rocker....hearts starts to flutter.
he has mad messy hair... lesigh (as cp would say).
he is a musician... getting lightheaded.
he is BRITISH.... GOING WEAK AT THE KNEES.

hello?! what is not to love?
i just felt i needed to justify my love tonight :)

and what do you do when you love something?
you devote your time & love & talent to it....
because really, what's better than scrapbooking & twilight..
or twiscrapping as my friend cp would say :)
who is this cp i speak of?
well she is my co-twiobssessed partner in crime here..
the paper cut. where scrapbooking meets twilight.
NO I'M NOT KIDDING !!!
(here's a peek----->)
come and play along :)

peace- k

ps. and as if the birthday gods were looking down on me... the new moon soundtrack is being released friday. the day before my birthday. thank you summit!! :)

two thankful tuesday.

somedays it's hard to be thankful for anything.

i know that's hard to say..

but i'm human.

i have bad days.

today was another in a string of many lately.

so today i'm thankful for simple things.

things maybe i take for granted on good days.

laughter.

i love to laugh.

and i am sometimes an obnoxious laugher.

i laugh loudly.

i laugh with all i have.

i miss days like that when things just hit me and make me happy.

music.

i almost couldn't live without my iPod.

truely.

i know it's materialistic and silly...

but i love it.

i do NOT leave home without it.

i have it on in the kitchen while i cook..

in the car while i drive..

@ lunch while i catnap..

and recently it's been serving to entertain mason while we are out.

peace-k

ps. idly watching underworld rise of the lycans, and wondering.. as far fetched as i thought it was for bella to be impregnated by edward, it's even more unbelievable that sonya (the vampire) is impregnated by lucian (the werewolf). i mean correct me if i'm wrong, but this was the whole reason rosalie didn't care for bella to become a vamp. just thinking out loud..